i talked to daniel. i put everything on the line. i told him everything i thought and felt. i told him that we either needed to commit to really try this one final time or i had to walk away and be done, completely and finally. i felt like i knew what was going to happen before we even started talking but i had to do it. i wouldn't have ever been able to stop wondering. and so i did it. i talked and talked. when i was done i sat there silent, waiting. after what felt like forever, daniel finally told me what he thought. he said that he really likes being my friend that we have a lot of fun together and that he likes having me around but when it comes to having anything more than that there just isn't a desire. he doesn't want anything now or ever. he said so if that meant we needed to go our own ways and leave each other alone then that's what he thought we should do.
i cried surprisingly little. i think that i knew deep down this was coming. i know i can do it and i know it is going to be ok and everything will work out eventually. and i know its going to suck and i know its going to be hard. i don't want to do it, but i have to. all i know is there is no way in hell i am ever going to go through this with daniel again. he's out of my phone, texts deleted, off my facebook. everything that tempts me has to be inaccessible. this has to be it, this has to be the last time.
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2 comments:
Tyleen I'm sorry. But you have to be feeling a sense of empowerment! You took control and buried Daniel to the ground. Good for you! I think you are very strong. Wow I am so proud of you.
TYLEEN HOLY FREAKING COW!!!!! I love you, you can do this i know you can let me know if you need anything at all dear.
PS clean up your damn mouth
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