pay day!

In about 2 minutes my first paycheck is going to be deposited into my bank account. I can't even begin to explain how excited I am!!! My first salary paycheck... wow this is a big step!

hmmm

Dear Friend,

For some reason I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I'm not sure why or what it is I'm even thinking. I am glad that you are a part of my life and that I know you. You have helped me remember things about what I deserve in life and how I deserve to be treated. Please don't change that about yourself. I hope that you are having fun and that you are letting lots of new people get to know you. But, don't forget about this friend. I still want to talk to you and hear about how things are going. Please call or text anytime, it would probably make my day.

Tinnie

Dark Circles

Right now I am at school. It is lunch time and I am taking a break from all of the teacher stuff I should be doing so I am not doing it tonight at home. Well, I just made the daily lunchtime break to the bathroom and took a gander at myself in the mirror. I have dark circles under my eyes. It seems like every day they are getting worse. I feel like I am always so so tired and I don't know why! I have been going to bed earlier every day and it doesn't seem to help. I think that something is wrong with me. I wake up literally every single day at 4:45 and then look at the clock and say dang it, why am I awake?! I don't have to be up for over an hour. Why is my internal clock so incredibly screwed up? Also, I think the circles are getting worse because I am getting white. Why does the sun have to leave us?? I think that we should all vote and get the planet to stop rotating so that we can have summer all the time. Not really dealing with winter this last year while I was in Vegas made me realize even more how much I like being warm and that I don't enjoy being cold. I am dreading the snow. I hope that it waits until at least November but who am I kidding. For all I know it could start next week. Man I wish it was Friday.

Teaching blog

I have 2 blogs... does that make me a complete nerd?

It is a blog about my teaching experiences mostly so that I don't have to repeat myself 8 times, to every member of my family. The address is tyleenteaches.blogspot.com

Maybe someday I will publish it as a first year teacher's journal. Then I could make the big bucks!

So happy

friends

So yesterday I was feeling a little sorry for myself. I don't know why but I just was. I think that I was just feeling unsure about the friend area of my life. I think that for some reason I was basing my ability to keep friends to the fact that Daniel and I aren't really that great of friends anymore. I was feeling picked on for lack of a better phrase. I was wishing that Daniel and I could move past this crappy thing that is going on where we don't talk to each other for a long time and then when I do try to talk to him he ignores me for a while and makes me feel even worse but then I started to really think about it and honestly, I guess that even though it sucks its ok. (sorry, longest sentence ever) I realized that even if there was some way for Daniel and I to just be really good friends I don't know if I would even want that. In the grand perspective of things a friendship like mine and Daniel's can't really last. Once I finally do meet someone then I won't want Daniel to be that involved in my life anymore and I'm sure the new guy won't either. That would just be not healthy. And so, I guess that I need to keep telling myself all of this so that I am ok with Daniel just being someone I know that I occasionally talk to. And besides, I feel like Daniel has changed a lot in the past year or two. Not necessarily bad or good change, just changed and he isn't the same guy that I fell for. When I feel like I miss Daniel it isn't the Daniel that he is now but the one he was two years ago. Maybe that's why things never worked out. Because the man he is becoming isn't the man I want or need. (not that I still don't think Daniel is a great guy, when he wants to be, just not the one for me.)

So now, I don't feel so sorry for myself. I have realized in the past couple of days that I have some super good friends that I wouldn't trade for anything and I am meeting new people every day. Nick and Kallen stopped by here on their way home from Utah and it made me feel really good. Well I think that it was mostly Nick's choice and Kallen just went along with it but still, its nice to know people are thinking of me sometimes.