Sunday, November 23, 2008
coaching
So I have been really bad at writing on here lately. I am so busy that I don't have time for anything. It is nice to be so busy. Between teaching school, coaching basketball and my church calling I hardly have time for myself. Coaching is really fun and I have grown to love the girls that I work with. There is one girl that I especially have grown close to. She is a senior and is absouletly hilarious. As I have found out more about her I know she has a kind of hard family life and it makes me sad. Her parents got divorced a while ago because her mom cheated on her dad with his best friend. Her mom is remarried and she doesn't really like her new step dad and her mom doesn't let her spend much time with her real dad because she thinks he is a bad influence (ok he has let her get a tattoo and drink with him so I guess she is right to a point) but he seems like a good enough guy and she really loves him and misses him and I feel bad for her. She just needs some consistency in her life and the head coach and I have both really gotten to know her. Last night she told me she felt like I was a big sister to her and she liked it and that she knew a while ago that I was going to become one of her best friends. It made me feel good that I was making a difference in her life. She is fun to be around and I'm glad that she knows she can come to me for help if she needs it.
Monday, November 3, 2008
who are you?
someone in the boise area keeps looking at my blog.... a lot. who are you?? i would love to know who is reading.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
At least...
At least...
I am healthy.
I have a safe and comfortable place to live.
I have a job.
I have a family that loves me unconditionally.
I have money to buy food.
I have the ability to learn new things.
I feel ok with who I am most of the time.
I have friends.
But most of all-
I have the knowledge that there is a plan for me.
I know where I am going and what I ultimately want in life.
I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ in my life.
I have the ability to use the atonement every single day
to comfort me and help me when I need it.
I am healthy.
I have a safe and comfortable place to live.
I have a job.
I have a family that loves me unconditionally.
I have money to buy food.
I have the ability to learn new things.
I feel ok with who I am most of the time.
I have friends.
But most of all-
I have the knowledge that there is a plan for me.
I know where I am going and what I ultimately want in life.
I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ in my life.
I have the ability to use the atonement every single day
to comfort me and help me when I need it.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Dang
I haven't been a very good blogger lately. I don't know why but I just haven't felt like writing on here much. I guess I don't feel like I haven't had many thoughts worth remembering. This weekend I have been at home for conference and just for a relaxing weekend. It has been pretty nice to have some time off from life.
This weekend my brothers ex-girlfriend, Bekah, from like 3 years ago came for a surprise visit with my other brother. Devin invited her here. He didn't want us to know that he had done that so it was supposed to be a surprise for our family. But whatever, my brother is a little more transparent than that. He is starting to screw with her emotions again and it makes me mad. Her and I talked for a while and she is really good at saying things like she knows nothing is ever going to happen with them and she's not in love with him anymore but I feel like she is lying to herself. I understand where she is coming from and I know how she feels and I know that there is a part of her that wishes things would work out. I can see myself in her and it makes me ache.
Everything has just made me think a lot about my life and what's going on. And, to add to it all, Daniel called me on Thursday night just to talk. I, for some unknown reason to me or anyone in the world, miss Daniel. It is frustrating. I don't want to miss him. I don't want to wish that I could talk to him. I don't want to have dreams about him. I want to find someone to fill the part of me that feels empty since Daniel has been cut out of my life. I want to care about someone that cares about me the way that I will care about them.
I don't understand why I could want to even associate with someone that has hurt me so many times. There is something seriously wrong with my brain. I wish I didn't love the Robertson family so much. It would be easier if they all weren't so amazing and fun.
This weekend my brothers ex-girlfriend, Bekah, from like 3 years ago came for a surprise visit with my other brother. Devin invited her here. He didn't want us to know that he had done that so it was supposed to be a surprise for our family. But whatever, my brother is a little more transparent than that. He is starting to screw with her emotions again and it makes me mad. Her and I talked for a while and she is really good at saying things like she knows nothing is ever going to happen with them and she's not in love with him anymore but I feel like she is lying to herself. I understand where she is coming from and I know how she feels and I know that there is a part of her that wishes things would work out. I can see myself in her and it makes me ache.
Everything has just made me think a lot about my life and what's going on. And, to add to it all, Daniel called me on Thursday night just to talk. I, for some unknown reason to me or anyone in the world, miss Daniel. It is frustrating. I don't want to miss him. I don't want to wish that I could talk to him. I don't want to have dreams about him. I want to find someone to fill the part of me that feels empty since Daniel has been cut out of my life. I want to care about someone that cares about me the way that I will care about them.
I don't understand why I could want to even associate with someone that has hurt me so many times. There is something seriously wrong with my brain. I wish I didn't love the Robertson family so much. It would be easier if they all weren't so amazing and fun.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
pay day!
In about 2 minutes my first paycheck is going to be deposited into my bank account. I can't even begin to explain how excited I am!!! My first salary paycheck... wow this is a big step!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
hmmm
Dear Friend,
For some reason I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I'm not sure why or what it is I'm even thinking. I am glad that you are a part of my life and that I know you. You have helped me remember things about what I deserve in life and how I deserve to be treated. Please don't change that about yourself. I hope that you are having fun and that you are letting lots of new people get to know you. But, don't forget about this friend. I still want to talk to you and hear about how things are going. Please call or text anytime, it would probably make my day.
Tinnie
For some reason I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I'm not sure why or what it is I'm even thinking. I am glad that you are a part of my life and that I know you. You have helped me remember things about what I deserve in life and how I deserve to be treated. Please don't change that about yourself. I hope that you are having fun and that you are letting lots of new people get to know you. But, don't forget about this friend. I still want to talk to you and hear about how things are going. Please call or text anytime, it would probably make my day.
Tinnie
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