At least...
I am healthy.
I have a safe and comfortable place to live.
I have a job.
I have a family that loves me unconditionally.
I have money to buy food.
I have the ability to learn new things.
I feel ok with who I am most of the time.
I have friends.
But most of all-
I have the knowledge that there is a plan for me.
I know where I am going and what I ultimately want in life.
I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ in my life.
I have the ability to use the atonement every single day
to comfort me and help me when I need it.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Dang
I haven't been a very good blogger lately. I don't know why but I just haven't felt like writing on here much. I guess I don't feel like I haven't had many thoughts worth remembering. This weekend I have been at home for conference and just for a relaxing weekend. It has been pretty nice to have some time off from life.
This weekend my brothers ex-girlfriend, Bekah, from like 3 years ago came for a surprise visit with my other brother. Devin invited her here. He didn't want us to know that he had done that so it was supposed to be a surprise for our family. But whatever, my brother is a little more transparent than that. He is starting to screw with her emotions again and it makes me mad. Her and I talked for a while and she is really good at saying things like she knows nothing is ever going to happen with them and she's not in love with him anymore but I feel like she is lying to herself. I understand where she is coming from and I know how she feels and I know that there is a part of her that wishes things would work out. I can see myself in her and it makes me ache.
Everything has just made me think a lot about my life and what's going on. And, to add to it all, Daniel called me on Thursday night just to talk. I, for some unknown reason to me or anyone in the world, miss Daniel. It is frustrating. I don't want to miss him. I don't want to wish that I could talk to him. I don't want to have dreams about him. I want to find someone to fill the part of me that feels empty since Daniel has been cut out of my life. I want to care about someone that cares about me the way that I will care about them.
I don't understand why I could want to even associate with someone that has hurt me so many times. There is something seriously wrong with my brain. I wish I didn't love the Robertson family so much. It would be easier if they all weren't so amazing and fun.
This weekend my brothers ex-girlfriend, Bekah, from like 3 years ago came for a surprise visit with my other brother. Devin invited her here. He didn't want us to know that he had done that so it was supposed to be a surprise for our family. But whatever, my brother is a little more transparent than that. He is starting to screw with her emotions again and it makes me mad. Her and I talked for a while and she is really good at saying things like she knows nothing is ever going to happen with them and she's not in love with him anymore but I feel like she is lying to herself. I understand where she is coming from and I know how she feels and I know that there is a part of her that wishes things would work out. I can see myself in her and it makes me ache.
Everything has just made me think a lot about my life and what's going on. And, to add to it all, Daniel called me on Thursday night just to talk. I, for some unknown reason to me or anyone in the world, miss Daniel. It is frustrating. I don't want to miss him. I don't want to wish that I could talk to him. I don't want to have dreams about him. I want to find someone to fill the part of me that feels empty since Daniel has been cut out of my life. I want to care about someone that cares about me the way that I will care about them.
I don't understand why I could want to even associate with someone that has hurt me so many times. There is something seriously wrong with my brain. I wish I didn't love the Robertson family so much. It would be easier if they all weren't so amazing and fun.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
pay day!
In about 2 minutes my first paycheck is going to be deposited into my bank account. I can't even begin to explain how excited I am!!! My first salary paycheck... wow this is a big step!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
hmmm
Dear Friend,
For some reason I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I'm not sure why or what it is I'm even thinking. I am glad that you are a part of my life and that I know you. You have helped me remember things about what I deserve in life and how I deserve to be treated. Please don't change that about yourself. I hope that you are having fun and that you are letting lots of new people get to know you. But, don't forget about this friend. I still want to talk to you and hear about how things are going. Please call or text anytime, it would probably make my day.
Tinnie
For some reason I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I'm not sure why or what it is I'm even thinking. I am glad that you are a part of my life and that I know you. You have helped me remember things about what I deserve in life and how I deserve to be treated. Please don't change that about yourself. I hope that you are having fun and that you are letting lots of new people get to know you. But, don't forget about this friend. I still want to talk to you and hear about how things are going. Please call or text anytime, it would probably make my day.
Tinnie
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Dark Circles
Right now I am at school. It is lunch time and I am taking a break from all of the teacher stuff I should be doing so I am not doing it tonight at home. Well, I just made the daily lunchtime break to the bathroom and took a gander at myself in the mirror. I have dark circles under my eyes. It seems like every day they are getting worse. I feel like I am always so so tired and I don't know why! I have been going to bed earlier every day and it doesn't seem to help. I think that something is wrong with me. I wake up literally every single day at 4:45 and then look at the clock and say dang it, why am I awake?! I don't have to be up for over an hour. Why is my internal clock so incredibly screwed up? Also, I think the circles are getting worse because I am getting white. Why does the sun have to leave us?? I think that we should all vote and get the planet to stop rotating so that we can have summer all the time. Not really dealing with winter this last year while I was in Vegas made me realize even more how much I like being warm and that I don't enjoy being cold. I am dreading the snow. I hope that it waits until at least November but who am I kidding. For all I know it could start next week. Man I wish it was Friday.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Teaching blog
I have 2 blogs... does that make me a complete nerd?
It is a blog about my teaching experiences mostly so that I don't have to repeat myself 8 times, to every member of my family. The address is tyleenteaches.blogspot.com
Maybe someday I will publish it as a first year teacher's journal. Then I could make the big bucks!
It is a blog about my teaching experiences mostly so that I don't have to repeat myself 8 times, to every member of my family. The address is tyleenteaches.blogspot.com
Maybe someday I will publish it as a first year teacher's journal. Then I could make the big bucks!
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